baby steps.

"God doesn't give you the people *you* want..."

Are you ever grateful to look back and see God's "no"'s?

I am. That sentence above that reminds me of what I want...and reminds me that what I want isn't always a part of His plan. Clearly. I've practically begged him for this one certain thing in the past few years, and when I get out of that place, I realize how grateful I am that He says "No. Not now."

And maybe not ever.

And that's okay. It just means that He has something infinitely better in store, something I can't even imagine...

But it's moments like this where I find myself entrapped in this "want" and have changed my plea from "God, give me!" to "God, please take this away."

Learning to surrender these pebbles...Taking it all one step, one breath at a time.

Because He's got a plan. I don't know why this desire has been placed upon my heart, but I'm learning to trust. Maybe somehow, someway, it will even be used for His glory...though I can't imagine how, to be honest.

But this verse is my new goal in life, that I would wholeheartedly fix my eyes on Him...

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

~Hebrews 12:2~

Tonight, though my heart feels just the tiniest bit bruised, I am grateful for His promises, for the hope He so fully provides...without which, I would be so incredibly lost, broken, wounded.

I am grateful.