Thursday, August 18, 2011

So when I get mad, you may never know it. I don't outright talk about it. I don't freak out. I don't explode in anger.
I seethe.
I keep it all to myself, and think. And all that thinking can be bad, considering the more I think about it, the angrier I get. And the angrier I get, the more I think about it. And then after so long of this, I usually have some sort of spaz out or another.
It's just not healthy, ya know?
Anyways, I'm usually not like this. I mean, not very often, that is...But when there's something or someone I have a bad attitude about, it takes next to nothing for me to get like that.
Thus, tonight, I kinda got like that...just for a little bit. Then I saw this picture...

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and it made me feel kinda guilty. I mean, it's true: what a waste of energy.
Pictures don't magically cure bad attitudes though. I need to work on that.


Friday, August 12, 2011

Concerning Hobbits.

My week in ten words or less:
~Cake.
~Books.
~Hobbits.
~Headaches.
~Ouch.

~The ouch and the headaches go together of course ;) I think it's the transitioning back and forth from the air conditioning at work to the hotness outside. Instant headache, ya know? Gah.

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~So the other day, I woke up super grumpy. It was dreadful. So I cleaned, and I really really wanted to bake something. So I went across the street, and raided my Nana's cupboards and got the items to make the yummiest chocolate cake ever. (I definitely prefer white icing on chocolate cake to chocolate icing on chocolate cake...yuck!) I was instantly happier, and my gleefulness has lasted about 3 straight days now! How lovely!
On a side note, it's times like these when it's awesome that I live with my 6-person family...cause otherwise, I'd have eaten that cake all to myself ;)

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~My bookstore is closing. Already. It's part of a mall that is ridiculous, and must have a hundred clothing stores...wait, I'mma go look it up.
Okay. 71 clothing stores (egads) and 18 shoe stores.
1 bookstore. That will be gone in the next 3 weeks. Because it's getting replaced with another clothing store. Ay ay ay.
Anyways, since we're closing, everything is 50% off...so Miss Lauren here's been buying lots and lots of books...Sigh. Ya know my worst new habit? "Someday, I'll have kids, and so I'm getting this adorable (and cheap) children's book for my own future children!!! And if I don't have kids for whatever reason, I'll give the books to my nieces and nephews!"
I have a sickness.
I'm sad though. I actually really really like my job. I honestly enjoy each and every person I work with...they're all kindred spirits. Plus, it never hurts to surround yourself with books ;)

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~I've finally reached that age where I'm officially no longer "one of the kids". Example: my parents went out without me today, and took my two younger siblings, and I practically wasn't even invited since they didn't even have room for me on their outing! I did have to work today, but still. Sigh. So here I sit, watching Lord of the Rings again. Lucky me, I get to chill downstairs on the super comfy couch with the ginormous tv ;) I wish I had a kitten to sit on my lap...

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~On a total side note, I just finished this book called "Dream Factory". It was pretty much terribly written, and a little bit *cough* stupid, yet I kinda loved it. Guess why! The entire book takes place in Disney World (Disney Land? I don't know the difference), and the characters are teenagers who are temporarily hired to play the Disney characters. The two main characters of the book play Cinderella and Dale (as in Chip and Dale?). Isn't that spiffy?? Anyways, it's totally awesome, because throughout the whole book, they talk about how Robin Hood just walked by, and they're chilling in the Swiss family treehouse and such. It was just cool!

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~I love Aragorn. With like, a whole half of my heart.
Ya know, this girl at school once told me I reminded her of a Lord of the Rings elf...Cause I'm just sooo serene and wise! Pfft not. She didn't actually say that...I was being sarcastic. But she did tell me I reminded her of one...I still think that's weird.
I think I'mma have to turn this movie off. It's actually a bit scary when you're sitting all by yourself in the dark, watching it... :o

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~My big brother's getting married a week from tomorrow. It's so odd. I mean, just yesterday, we were teeny tiny, and the very best of friends. Now he's getting married. I mean, he's old enough to get married. Sometimes, that's what hits me. You know, in the book "Where the Heart is", there's a part where the main character, Novalee, says to her friend Forney, something along the lines of "Don't you feel like you're just a little kid playing an adult?" Like, sometimes it hits me as I'm driving home from work, or being in my cousin's wedding, driving to the bank, stuff like that...it's like, I'm not a little kid anymore. I'm at that age where some parents tell their kids to move on out! (I'm happy my parents aren't included in that.)
Yeah, my mind is just like blah today. I don't even know if that made any sense, but I'm givin' up.

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~You know how people always say, "Stop living in the past" and such? Well, I think my problem is that my mind is always "in" the future. Like Rapunzel, I can't help but think "when will my life begin?" Gosh, I'm so dramatic. I'm only 18. I need to get over myself.
Right?

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~I FINALLY got to see Soul Surfer this week....myyy goodness. I loved that movie. It was beyond amazing. It was such an emotional movie...I'd love to watch it again. I tried to watch it with my little brother and little sister...Bella gave up on it as soon as the shark part came up though. *rolls eyes* I mean, she knew it was going to happen! Silly girl.

~I sometimes wonder what life would be like without headaches. Seriously. I've had probably at least 2, 3 headaches a week since I was little. How fascinating it'd be to go a month without one...

Okay. I've officially gotta go. Adios, mis amigos! :D




Sunday, August 7, 2011

Do you ever just feel like you want to run away? Not forever, just for a day or two, so you can get away to somewhere calm, and just breathe.
I find myself feeling like that a lot lately. I'm a stressed out person who's got no reason to be stressed out.
I just want to go to sleep for a long while.
(Except that I took a nap today, and therefore, know that I shan't be able to fall asleep for a long time tonight. Too bad I have to get up at 7 in the morning :|)

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Winnie the Pooh makes me want to cry. He just says the most precious things.