even then I knew that...

"Four years ago, I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl, who had a boyfriend. And I had to do the hardest thing I've ever had to do which was just to...wait. Don't get me wrong, I flirted with her. Pam, I can now admit in front of friends and family, that I do know how to make a photocopy. Didn't need your help that many times. And, uh, do you remember how long it took you to teach me how to drive stick? ...I've been driving stick since high school, so... For a really long time, that's all I had. Little moments with a girl who saw me as a friend. And, a lot of people told me I was crazy to wait this long for a date with a girl I work with but I think, even then I knew that...I was waiting for my wife."

Dear Lord,

Please bring me a Jim Halpert.

Love,

Lauren

In a world of my own...

Peter Pan would stop by every evening to chat, Thomas O'Malley and Duchess would stroll by in the twilight, Ariel would be having swim parties every weekend, Aurora would be having slumber parties, and Simba and Nala would always be around for cuddles when you're feeling sad.

We'd speak by singing, and everyone would magically know all the words.

Stars Hollow would be a real place, and I'd live there. For sure.

My dogs would never bark for no reason.
Correction: my dogs would never bark for a reason that doesn't matter. In other words, they always have a reason. But most of the time, it's just a silly one :P Like, "Ooooh Tyler's here, and he must be here to kill us!" Tyler's my brother. And I really don't think he's gone that crazy yet.

There would be no fat, no skinny, just...beautiful.

Meeting a stranger in the woods, dancing together, singing together, and falling in love, wouldn't be weird.

Unicorns would be real. I mean, duh.

Raccoons would never have rabies.

Letters would be the big thing. Forget texting and Facebook. Grab a pen and paper and get to it.

The wicked witch of the west would have never been concocted. *shiver*

Everyone would know who their one true love is...so they wouldn't have to worry about all those other guys and girls coming along, tripping them up.

There'd be time to read all of the wonderful books in the world.

I'd have been a dancer.

There'd be no such thing as "bad hair days".

All boys would sing and play the guitar ;)
Okay, maybe not all boys. Where would be the fun in that?

Fireworks would be a once a week occurrence. Always loud, always booming, always magical.

Cancer is a word that wouldn't exist. Car accidents? Don't be silly, that's a myth.
The past could be looked back upon without pain. Maybe you could stop missing people. Maybe the ache would go away. Maybe it would even all make sense.

...there'd be no sad moments. Only joy, laughter, smiles, and giggles! =)

I'm sure there'd be flaws in a world of my own.
But it'd be nice...for a while ;D

because I need to smile. :)

"And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside..."

~Anne Frank~

all photos via weheartit.

It's over, it's underneath, it's inside, it's in between...

So often, I let things get between us. I build these walls, ones that I can never hope to tear back down on my own.

I forget that as a child of the Most High God, I have the power to tell Satan that he "shall NOT pass", and I give him footholds. I turn my eyes from where they need to be, and take two steps backwards.

I fall and feel as if I'll never get up again.

But somehow...some way...He rescues me.

Over and over.

When I very least deserve it.

When I'm the one pounding those nails into his hands and feet.

He picks me up. He holds my heart. He says, "You're still mine."

Oh, my Lord, how I have missed You.

Watch this.

ooooh the joy!

Aaaah.

Friday night.

Tinkerbell PJ's.

Cozy warm bed=12 hour hibernation.

Phillip Phillips' lovely song "Home" playing in the background. (Yay Phillip!!! I knew he'd win ;)

And overall, quiet. Peace and quiet.

Aaaah.

Was I really just complaining about being home on a Friday night a few weeks ago?

I take it ALL back!!! I'm so happy I could die :]

I finally finished watching Downton Abbey, after finding season 2 at Best Buy (last copy=mine! Yes.)

Oh my goodness my gracious. You know...I think that Matthew Crawley might just have become my favorite fictional male character. As in, I'm pretty much in love with him. Ahhh if only he were real.

The bad side to all of this? Now must wait until January to see season 3. Booo.

Can I just say, the whole Matthew-Mary relationship is so inspiring? I mean, really. It's like, a 7 year ordeal.

That gets me.

Tenth Avenue North has a new song; I'd almost forgotten how much I love these guys. Love. Every single song has a message; this one is not excluded from that...and after a hard week dealing with people, it reaches out and grabs my heart.

My hair is finally growing out. It's been nearly 5 years since I cut it super short. And it's just now almost back to where it was. (My hair takes the longest time to grow. Clearly.) That picture's a lie though. It's not *that* long, and it certainly hasn't turned that brown either. :P

(In other words, no that is not my hair. I wish.)

Did I tell you guys that I had an allergic reaction to my brother's cat? It looks like my dreams of someday having a lovely kitty to call my own shall not be coming true.

I'll never be the same. *sigh*

On the note of lovely kitties, the sweet moment of my day was when the computer guy who came into work today to switch the one computer out for a new one actually took the time (after being there for almost 5 hours) to switch my cute kitty background from the old computer to the new computer. It was the sweetest thing ever.

And that's him, that's him!!! I found him :D

Did I mention that this is a three day weekend? Did I mention that I'm so happy I could die?? :D :D :D

That's why her hair's so big. It's full of secrets.

Best. Show. Ever.

Seriously.

"I will always find you!"

Oh, my heart.

Sometimes I wish I could be woken up from an evil curse to find out that I'm really a fairytale princess. Who then immediately finds her long lost prince charming. And then lives happily ever after.

Ahhh.

So you know those little codes inside of Disney DVD's? Yeah. Not junk!! They're magical little gems, and you should treasure them ;D No, really. Look what's on it's way in the mail (See photo above) thanks to Disney Movie Rewards (remember the magic codes we just talked about??). I'm so excited about this. I'm totally gonna start baking just because of this! ;D

Okay, working at a doctor's office? Oh gosh, I wish I could tell you guys the things that go on. Of course, I can't. But I wish I could. Let me just say, I get some funny stories ;D Too bad I can't share them...Dagnabbit. Oh well.

I'm now pretty sure I'm allergic to cats.

I'm devastated.

Weddings, weddings, weddings. One this week for my friend; that's the one I'm in! Yay?

Then another in a few weeks for my employer's son. I've met him and his fiancee a few times, though don't really know them all that well...but I officially love weddings. And I'll actually be able to sit back and enjoy this one; I'm not in it! Ha! Keep in mind, I've been in 3 weddings in the past 10 months. :o So it'll be nice.

I love spring.

*deep breath of fresh air*

...or summer. Whatever you'd call what we're having.

I don't need a cookie.

I don't.

I really don't.

*cough*